After a year and a half of exile from the social group I had created— over a matter of petty Internet arguments (I did not cause any problems at BNYC events, and if they tell you I did, they are outright lying), I was depressed to the point of suicidality. BNYC was the only social outlet I had, the only social outlet I needed. Going to one BNYC event a month was enough to let me feel like I had some part in the local community. Without BNYC, I felt like an outcast in my own city. That is why I came to California.
After I stepped down from running Bronies-NYC, its staff were quick to distance themselves from my fight to defend myself against certain former BNYC staffers, who had taken to 4chan, posting nasty threads bashing me for being transgender
. One of said staffers
had even robbed me (personally) of several hundred dollars. BNYC remained "neutral", refusing to take my word (or my evidence, including bank statements
) over the word of the thief in question. This created quite a bit of friction, and their taking my word as equal to that of a petty criminal
This friction came to a head in 2013, after BravoTV's "The People's Couch" aired an episode in which their panel of viewers watched BronyDoc and openly mocked me for being of ambiguous gender.
I attempted to convince the head of BNYC to assist me in organising a protest outside the headquarters of BravoTV's parent network, NBCUniversal. The head was sympathetic, but Kar (chair of Ponycon, co-chair of BNYC) was not.
She pressured the head of BNYC to issue a statement publicly disavowing any position on my protest, either pro or con
. This led to a series of Internet and phone/text arguments, which led to Kar leading an effort to have me banned from BNYC for a year. A year later, after further petty arguments over an incident in which one of Kar's
blackballed me from informal social gatherings with one of my oldest friends (who was visiting from out of town; due to this staffer's actions, I was unable to see this friend of 18 years
), this ban was made permanent.